September 30

I never thought this will be hurt so much, I already know the consequences from long time ago but it never happen to me before I never know it would hurt me too bad. It could kill me and/or make me feel more stress day by day. Just because I felt so stress, I have to tell someone, even it's Myspace or telling my friends I always feel better. I just want to share my thoughts with my friends even if it's a happy or sad thoughts I always want to share it. Every time I told them and we talk and laugh I just feel so light and less stress. But I would never know it will ruin me, day by day he hate me more and avoid me more, the gap between ma and him grew bigger. I already know about this a long time ago I it just hurt me so bad. Now there is a very slim chance that he is not mad at me anymore. But why he have to do that he gave me a hope made me happy and drop me down from the high sky. Through out my life I never found someone as good as you, I wonder is a miracle ever happen to me; you will not be mad at me anymore and be my friends or I will be so lucky that you like me, but it's just a miracle.
PS I love you