October 21

Let's say it's begin on Monday after PE. I heard my name being called to the office. So I went up, the assistant principal told me that I got a academic pass due to the fundraiser and I get to choose which class to use it, but I don't know which one to pick. Then I saw candy in math class so I picked it. On Tuesday or Monday, my team have a soccer match against his team in PE. He kicked the ball and I tried to block it, I didn't success kicking the ball out but it went straight to the side of my stomach and hit my bone. My friend, Ave, stood next to me and screamed : "OMG! You just hit Tiana." I was holding my stomach after the ball hit me, it was hurt but is not as hurt as my heart even the ones that I don't know concerned about me but he just look at me and walk away without a word. I felt very angry and I told Nhu-because she's my teammate that until I hit the ball to his head then I'm satisfy but I know for sure that I'm not going to be happy if that happen because I love him so much. It felt like a heartbreak to me, it happened lots of time but I'm still don't get use to it. Later at lunch his friend, Deejay, asked me why I don't talk to him and I like him. I told Deejay that because he hated me that's why I'm scared or I don't want to talk to him. Deejay told me that because I don't talk to him that's why he hated me, and it I talk to him he's not going to hate me. Now back to the dream, it was Halloween at that time and I'm in Mrs. Beals's class and it was funny that we went Trick-or-treating and later that math period, we have a substitute. We didn't do anything for math we were just getting candies and have a Halloween party. Our sub wants the class to sit close together so she arranged the sits and I get to sit next to him, his friend, Mico, in front of us. There was a big candy bag, I'm on the side for candies, my friend next to me try to get in for candies. It was so funny that my little crush grab my friend out and went in next to me, I wonder he wants to get candies or to be next to me. Later my other friends weren't be able to get candies because it was so crowded and they didn't want to go in, so I gave them all of my candies and I don't have any candies left. On the other hand, he and Mico got lots of candies and asked me to have it together, we sat and ate it and laughed, I tried to talk to him liked Deejay told me. It was a really good thing that when the period ended he asked me to be his gf and ours relationship started, it sure jump so fast. After school there is another party that belonged to his friends, he brought me with him. Everyone was laughing and especially Deejay, he kept making fun of me, but I love it though. Like a few hours later or a long time later, something happen between that time was a mystery, I have no of it. But suddenly we jump to a wedding it was just weird. It seems like I don't know what to do for a wedding and they took two people for an example. They didn't take Mico and Summin (a couple that's also our friends) nor me and him, but he and my friend, Nhu. Another friend and I always suspect that Nhu also like him and now this happen, it was just so weird. Then no one really pay attention about the couple though, after they both said "I do", they suddenly kiss each other, and it's looked like Nhu did it willingly. Everybody was giving a long "ooohh", the thunder appear, I didn't hear the thunder but a loud "crack" I know immediately it's the sound of my heart cracking, breaking and falling apart. The rain started to come down, everyone is still surprised about the two, I ran away some of friend-I don't know why they there and Nhu followed me but stop when the rain is too big. I kept running and he's didn't follow me, I stop, having no balance and fall down sat there and crying. It was the weirdest dream I ever have, I wish it just end at the part where we came to the after school party and met his friends, it'll be the best dream ever if it end like that. Life is never perfect and fair, its not like what you always it to be. Now back to normal life something happen that is very bad at lunch, when I told my friend that she said it's really bad because that happen. At lunch he and Nathan went to the bench after finish their lunch like always but there is no space left, and it always happen to be the place where I put my backpack and binder is the only space left. Since I'm not there, he put my backpack and binder down in the wrong position and and my binder fell open. It opened in the position of the pocket where I put all the stuff about me and him. In there are cards with our names and wishes that we'll be together forever from my friend, and hearts, and a drawing of me and him from Nhu. Nhi and I sat on the back of the building and I walked back I saw what happen I turn around and told Nhi and told her to go get the binder and her backpack for me I'll go to the restroom. When I got out something worse happen, Nhi opened to the pocket to check is the drawing still there. When she open it Dylan grab the drawing and ran to him, trying to show him what it is. Nhi ran in between Dylan and him trying to take the drawing back and bump into him, fell his Gatorade. She got the drawing back though but she told me he was mad she didn't even dare to look at his face and she said sorry a lot. All of his friend was there : Nathan, Deejay, Mico, and him I can't face them until they forgot about this. I hope nothing will happen tomorrow, such a horrible day I have today.