October 9

This morning because my mom forgot to get my lunch and I came to school late. At school he and my friends already there, I walked pass the lower patio to go to my class I saw him already half way to the basketball court. I saw he looked back at my direction, I wonder did he saw me or not but then he continue his way. When I reach to my class my friends told me that he went away, I said I know I saw him. She said because he came but didn't see me only her and another friends of mine so he left. I told he he doesn't like me at all why she said that, just like I'm so special or important to him. She said because the other days when I'm there he sits like a few feet away and wait for his friends. Today he's not he only stays for a little bit then left. I told her I don't know, then like five minutes after she told me that I saw him come back and sits where he used to and wait for his friends. She made me feel so so so happy for the whole day, I don't know is it true or not. There always lots of questions between me and him, he said he doesn't like me and he already have a girlfriend, but he always acts like he likes me, what is going on ? When I walked to my second period class, I walked pass him because he was at the door, drinking Caprisun. "Hey, you have a dollar ?" He asked and I turned back immediately in surprise, "What the..""Just kidding, " he smiled back and said. It made me even more happy, and I gain more hope in him but as I having more hope and one day he'll say he doesn't like me at all I will be more disappoint. At lunch he asked me for a dollar again I asked why he need a dollar he just said he needs to buy something. I didn't want to let him borrow it, but I love him how could I say "no" to him especially when his cute face is smiling at me with his cute voice saying "please" so many times how could I say "no". I let him borrow it but I kept telling him to give it back on Monday, he was drinking his water and told me to give it to his friend, Nathan, who is standing next to him. When I gave it to Nathan I think he did said "thank you", it's the first time ever when ask me to do something for him and he said "thank you". Then I came back to my friends, one of them said he'll never give back my dollar to me, just like when he borrow her 50 cents and never give back. Another said I have to stop doing what he told me to because he doesn't like me at all, he just taking advantages off from me. They seem to forgot that whenever I do something for him I always think about it before I do it. So I told them that I want to see will he treats me different from my friends or not, will he give back my dollar on Monday or not. Then when we transit from fifth to sixth period I stop at their class like always and when I walked pass him. He saw me and, "Hey, Tiana." I turned back and looked at him while he smile after he called me and walk to me also taking out something from his pocket. I still look at him and he told me that I can have my dollar back because he doesn't need it anymore and he put it on the desk that is near us. From that time, the whole day, until now, and maybe will be in the future until I know the answer it will always be in my mind. I kept wondering is it true that he did really need a dollar or he and his friends just want to see will I let him lend money or not. After I gave him my money and explain to my friends, I turned my attention back at him again and I saw he and his friends standing at the corner talking and laughing and looking at me or my direction. I don't really know why, but I'm still happy about my day nothing bad happen, he talked to me just like his friends, he smiled at me and joking with, great day.
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